January Blahs

Listening: Jeff Larson - New Antiques album

Not much is going on here in January at the Byars's household. I think we are just in hibernation mode for the winter. Something about this time of year is depressing. Maybe it's the cold weather, the exhaustion over the craziness of the holiday spectacle, or the deadness of plant life, but I always struggle to feel that usual enthusiasm for life. Jeremy's family has a term for this that can't really be defined, but somehow perfectly describes this state of being, they call it the Moley Grubbies.

Classes have started back (Jeremy teaching high school/community college and me finishing my last semester of grad. school) and that is going really well. I'm taking a Program Evaluation class that is more skills focused, which seems like a good segue into the real (scary) world a.k.a. career world (insert horror movie soundtrack here). Speaking of the career world...I'm finding that it isn't as easy of a choice as I had previously thought. Once Jeremy was done with his Master's degree he knew exactly what he was getting into, but for me it's much more ambiguous - I hate ambiguity, but more than that I hate being stuck in a field that I don't really love without choices. I guess in a way I'm trying to have my cake and eat it too, however in my defense I would only take a small slice, without too much icing, preferably confetti cake, with chocolate ic...whoops there I go again.

The good thing is Jeremy and I are always on the same page as far as what we want out of our life. And so what if what we want for our lives is non-traditional and non-absolute? There is a struggle going on within us of how to balance our passions for life and/or/but how to make a living doing this. We aren't too worried about it, but soon we will have to make decisions, which is very hard for two indecisive people! I loved this quote from an NPR article that basically said instead of focusing on trying to keep up with the Joneses maybe we should be asking the Joneses how are they doing?

Did this confuse you as much as it confused me? Sorry this was more of a stream of consciousness entry. Ha! I have no idea where this is going- see this is what the Moley Grubbies do to a person....maybe I will have better luck in February?